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The lump I found under my skin..1" above my naval is just the blood vessel. She says it isn't that uncommon and certainly nothing to worry about. Not unusual for woman to have it, thanks to pregnancy and separation of the abdominal muscle.

I weigh 214lb. WOW..that is a HUGE relief. I am a size 14/16 depending on clothing sizes. That is your american average woman. Why I weigh like a rock is beyond me. It's also why I have always told myself it is a number and doesn't define me. I was a size 10 and weighed 178..not typical I know. Yes I am a rock. HOWEVER...Friday I have an appt at a special clinic about having the weight loss LAP BAND done. IT is a non invasive surgery, there is not cutting and reassembling your organs, it is simply a belt placed around your stomach , it is also adjustable when yo go to the office as they fill the inner tubing, or let it out. The fact is, even 214, rock or not, it not healthy. I have Degenerative Spine Disease, I need excess weight off me. I have worked my ass off for YEARS and am having such limited success. I need more help from the medical field. I am not and will not be ashamed to seek help. If my insurance covers it, I'm doing it. If it doesn't, I will continue my struggle to drop the 50 lbs. I went to this same Weight Loss Surgery Center over a year ago, and my old insurance didn't cover it. I hope this one does.

When you have arthritis, and when it's in your spine, your limitations for exercise become far more limited. I am not able to run, dance/zumba, kick box, without pain. I will not continue epidural of the Thoracic area and do things to make it worse. Swimming is great, so is walking. Some strength training. I can do these and am. But they are not enough to stimulate my weight loss. If I don't eat enough, my body says...SCREW YOU...I"M STORY EVER MORSEL. If I eat perfect I wiggle back and forth on the scale. I'm human, I can't and will not live on broccoli and fruits/vegie's only. I eat good now, I don't eat fast food, I don't eat candy, drink soda, junk food. I eat good, and I"m active. It's time to seek elsewhere.

I'm setting up a Etsy.com site for all the things I make. It will give me something to do since my options are limited with movement for now :)

My bone density scan was not back yet today. Hopefully this week or next.

I won't let my body beat me down. I will continue to enjoy the things I do, my friends, my family and the water :)