Don't read *To much* into it

WOW...thank you for all the well wishes..I just saw them. Are you guys certain there is not a kick back on email reminders that you have comments or posts? DO I have to come to this blogger dashboard to see everything? Well, I have to say I have thought of MS many times and I keep going to read over the symptoms. But I don't have the twitching and other things. I know you don't have to have them all, but all of those also mimic what my dr. has said I have,,, fibromyalgia. So, I had my Thoracic Epidural last Tuesday..oh, what fun is that! HAHAHHAHAHA...just like the epidural you may have had when having a baby, but higher up, they don't hit the nerve to numb you, and inject other goodies like steroids, anti-inflammatory and pain meds. My pain when from a 8-9 to a 6..so it worked. You do them in a series of typically 3. I go in on the 30th for another. Did I mention I'm the queen of passing out? They even give me an injection that nearly prevents you from fainting, I am proud to say I almost beat it! hahahahhaha. My right shoulder is numb and is in pain, every dr. just seems to blow it off. I can honestly say 100% if I didn't wake up in the morning I don't think I would care. Don’t get me wrong, I try to enjoy every moment I'm alive and try my hardest to do fun things with the boys, but this summer and fun days (as you recall) just are sucking. We have done a few things, but between my back and money, it's not happening. Scott works for my parent’s tool & die and they have laid 2 off already, it's a small shop. Many Tool & Die here have gone under. I don't think my parents business (since I was 4) will survive this fantastic (smart ass) economy. We are behind in our house payment; we should have May's paid tomorrow. We have medical bills a mile high, and god only knows what else we are dodging just to stay afloat. Do you ever wonder sometimes what give you the will to keep going? Where the hell it even comes from? I know I do. I just don't have it. I'm so exhausted. Sometimes I’m not certain if I want to take a bottle of pills and then drive to the ER and say here it is (what I took) FIX ME..A cry for help. Of do I want to jump on a Greyhound Bus and just leave? Yet, here I am smiles and laughter and make the best of things. I figure if I have to grace this earth, I may as well make the best of it right. (please take note I am rambling..not really going to do these things) Speaking of the best, we took the boys on fun day #2 to a Buffalo Ranch here in Urbana Ohio and they had a few "pet deer" as well. One of these fawns named "Pebbles" is only a month old and LIVES in their house (which is a awesome log home with adjacent meat(buffalo) market attached) the lady was nice enough to bring Pebbles out for us to love on...here are some pictures...enjoy...love to you all. P.S. I went public again, it’s a pain in the ass private and I don't like how nobody gets alerts. Stalkers..bring it on if you’re out there ;) Muahh